Feeling so emotionally low today.



Hello ALL!



Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.



Merry merry merry XMAS to anybody that stumbles upon this blog :D

XMAS is nearing and look, it started snowing in my office! :O

Hahaha, that's just a photo trick. But wouldn't it be so cool to experience snow. Well, at least for me!

Each time Xmas is nearing, that means the ardous year is finally coming to an end. Within this year, I have switched jobs twice. Looking back on my past posts, I used to be happy and positive before May. Yet, after May, everything went on a downhill. Up till now, I'm still struggling to get everything in perspective. What I can proudly say now is that I'm a stronger and happier person than before. No more heart tangled up in the wrong guy and mind focused on fleeting things in Life. What I would love to improve in my Life now is my sales tactic and fitness.

I actually suddenly felt like blogging but now that I've started, the inspiration is somewhat gone. Lols, so I'll just leave this blog with some more photos.

1) My photo card, also it tells you which company I'm at now.





Dear All,

I guess I'm back once again. It is the time of the year again when I collect the moments in my head, relax in front of my computer and let the words flow. I stress highly on the word 'TIME'.

Today is a public holiday, and I'm just glad I didn't need to wake up early. It is a beautiful smelling rainy day. I do love to sleep and wake up to the salty fresh cool air. And the winds of change of blowing once again.

"When the winds of change blow, some people build walls and others build windmills."

I cooked like a huge bowl of noodles with luncheon meat, 2 eggs and ikan bilis. Threw it away halfway becoz there was some kinda bone or plastic shit in it. Really do not know where it came from, but didn't want to find out. I'm pretty full though.

Had lotsa beer to drink ytd, walked into NANA as well, but didn't stay for drinks. Went to Mustafa to eat prata and mee hoon goreng accompanied with iced milo. That's my sorta lifestyle for now, eat anything, drink anything, no wonder sometimes I end up feeling like anything.

When I got into the job, I knew there were sacrifices to be made, in order to show commitment for the job. I didn't mind as well due to the friends I have there. I don't think I ever made friends at work before, until now. But I have to face the reality that people come and go, hence, I should really start making plans for myself instead. I would like to think that I am a high-flier, overachiever and go-getter. At least that's where I'm planning to aim to land.

Well, decisions are to be made once again. Tough decisions, nonetheless. If I were to move, I would definitely stay there for a few years. No more changes for awhile, it's time to get rooted and grow within. I am definitely going to be successful one day and I pray for the right environment to be in, with the opportunity I'm getting.

I miss CF so much, my close friends would tire of hearing me say that. I am both intimidated and excited by the fact that I may very well get a chance to build my life in my favour again. To be successful in my career, to be fit and to eat well. Going back to embrace the true me again.

I realised that after not writing for too much, my phrasing of English is pretty 'cui'. I guess we'll see over the next few days if this blogging phase lasts.

Love,
Alyssa



Great News Everybody!!Will get the full details soon and should be able to start work next week. It's going to be hectic and full of expectations again but at least the stress will be lesser than the stress of not having a job. And I can't complain about getting an income at the end of the month.


Love
Alyssa



It's been a while since I last posted, and now I'm back to stay.

The last 6 months of my Life has basically been a pool of uncertainty and nightmarish happenings. I've realized that I definitely wasn't being rational about a whole lot of decisions in my Life. I deserved so much more than mere settling. I am very glad to be able to open up to my family, relatives and good friends again. Even if they might not know the full extent of what has happened in my Life, I still appreciate their company, warmth and humor.

Just to give a brief overview of what has happened thus far, I made a bad choice to date an abusive divorced man with a son. It is by far the most horrible relationship ever and has left me with more psycho complexes than I can imagine. Feeling super relieved that everything is far behind me and I am in so much better company now. I also have a permanent scar on my right shin from falling, had to get stitches which was really painful. Then, I also had my very 1st car accident, which was a super close shave. It still sends scary images of how it happened and shivers down my spine of an alternative outcome at times. I still try to push it away and not think so much.

So moving on with my Life, have been picking up Crossfit after the 2 months break. Struggling and dying somewhere in between, but I know that the CFSG crew is behind me as well, especially Coach Kevin, who has been supporting me right from the very start. You can never find another a Coach more dedicated to his athletes than him. I also stayed at MBS recently, sponsored by my 1st brother. Though it was short, I really enjoyed myself there. Now, I'm looking for a job as well. So I'll keep my fingers crossed about the ESC job.

I really find Life less complicated now. I have dreams again, to become fit with CFSG, to hold a job and excel at it, to pick up a part-time Biz degree in future should it help me further my career. And I am not jaded anymore, I want to travel the world as soon as I have finances, bring my family out for dinner and in time, settle down for marriage and kids in the future. I'll find my guy who will grow old with me and make mistakes with me, have 2 beautiful kids and struggle to pay the house and get a beautiful car. Hahaha...

All in all, I've picked myself up and I love LIFE once again!

Spread the Lurrrveee,
Alyssa