There is a fine line between being complacent and being confident.

Past few days have not been really good for me eating-wise, have been having cheat meals almost everyday, which made me gained 3 kgs. At first, it started out as stress eating due to my job. Then, CNY came with all its glorious dunno-how-many-hidden-calories tarts and cookies. Now, its partly also because I'm happier and more lax with my eating habits. It has been chips, ice cream, butter, milo in a repeated fashion. 3 kg is like a major deal for me because the scale seems to really hate me. No matter what exercise I do, I don't really lose much scale weight. So have fun guessing how heavy I really am... hahaha, hint: really heavy!

So yesterday, I went for hill sprints as smartly suggested by someone. Surprisingly, he programmed a pretty good warmup, was kinda impressed by that. But certainly not impressed by the fact that we ate so much yong tau foo before the sprints that I ended up vomitting after the 5th hill sprint. In total, we did 6 warmups and 6 hill sprints. Damn fun, everybody in MacRitchie is like either strolling around enjoying the scenery, playing or taking a leisure jog. Whereas, the two of us looked like we were dying and I don't think anybody was able to comprehend.

There's also something majorly wrong with me these days, which I suspect it might be due to me being affected over the weight gain. These days, I don't feel as 'strong' and I don't feel like I'm able to push hard enough anymore. My timing and strength is also deproving exponentially to my weight gain *sad* Oh wells, but everything comes with effort, determination and discipline. So I will just not think about it and march on.

Regarding the first line, I would just like to be very open and say that this is a major issue I face in my weight battles. Encouragement might spur you on but it kinda turns me in the other direction. I don't really wish to hear about how much I've trimmed down, because it makes me believe that I'm acceptable. Then, I get ahead of myself and think it's finally okay to eat like a normal person, when it's really not. I still have a long way to go and more goals to achieve. Ironically, I am also not asking for rude comments to be passed by me. Does anybody else face this as well? Or is it just me?

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