Prepare for the crime scene..


Snatch 80% x2 x5

Mini-WOD:
Alt Tabata
KBS 12kg / Tuck jumps

Alyssa: 69 / 153 = 222

Today was more of a technique lesson for me, there was actually 1 snatch I did where I was able to feel the 'magic' or 'power' transmitting through my body. Sweet feeling and it made the bar so much 'lighter'! I need to chase that feeling.. If you know what I mean.





These was what my colleagues ate for dessert during lunch.. I tasted red ruby for the very first time! Really nice, it's actually water chestnut.. Hehe


But this was what I ate.. 2 of my favourite fruits! :D

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa





I am so obsessed with this song right now.

It's a beautiful duet between two very talented singers, with absolutely breathtaking and haunting voices.

She was like April skies
Sunrise in her eyes
Child of light, shining star, fire in her heart
Brightest day, melting snow
Breaking through the chill
October and April.

He was like frozen sky
In October night
Darkest cloud, endless storm
Raining from his heart
Coldest month, deepest too
Tearing down the spring
October and April

Like hate and love
World's apart
This fatal love was like poison right from the start
Like light and dark
World's apart
This fatal love was like poison right from the start

We were like loaded guns
Sacrificed our lives
We were like love undone
Craving to entwine
Fatal touch
Final thrill
Love was bound to kill
October and April

Like hate and love
World's apart
This fatal love was like poison right from the start
Like light and dark
World's apart
This fatal love was like poison right from the start

Hate and love
World's apart
This fatal love was like poison right from the start
Light and dark
World's apart
This fatal love was like poison right from the start

October and April
October and April
October and April

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa






Pretty self-explainatory..

I love running WODs, even though running and any kind of squats kill me. I kinda feel my old 'pain pushing' self coming back. I guess this is what happens when you're forced out of your comfort zone. I felt pretty wasted after the WOD and I loved every minute of it. The difficulty it took to catch my breath, the way my heart pounded against my chest.. It was pure adrenaline.

Managed to catch a glimpse of the CFSG video Sandy Choo made.. I must say, it's fucking amazing! The audio and angles are out of this world!

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




One thing I deeply regret was not chasing after you and hugging you at Citilink. It was my gut instinct but I trusted your words that you would talk to me later. What happened later was a complete nightmare. I have never chased people with phone calls and smses before. I was completely at a loss.

What scares me and makes me afraid now is the fact that I won't be able to feel your presence anymore. I miss everything about you and the world seems darker and quieter. I cry but I think it helps me feel a little more alive. I want to meet you badly and talk to you.

What's stopping me from acting on this is rationality. It seems that irrationality hasn't gotten me anywhere and I honestly don't want to hurt you anymore. I don't want to live with the fact that Alyssa hurts people and enjoys it. I don't want to be a bad person.

I'm actually afraid to disclose even more about how I feel because I'm afraid to admit to myself that I can't live without you but you can. I'm equally afraid of becoming either vulnerable or bitter.

Honestly, I don't even know whether all my thoughts and words make sense but I guess I got to give them credit for haunting me in my head.

Alyssa







This is Alyssa writing, or at least I think she is. The whole day, I been fighting the urge to break any emotional defenses, because I felt that I have said what I could said. And anymore would be manipulative. But I guess that doesn't cull negative thoughts. I don't like these bad memories. I don't want to feel this way.

It's 3pm and it has been a long miserable day. There's pain, hurt, anger and sadness so tightly curled up inside of me that it could make me retch. I feel kind of numb I would say. I know for a fact it's all a great big mistake but what can I say or do? How can I convince someone that my feelings are true? How can I ask someone to stay when he is sure he wants to go because of the negative thoughts? I don't want to be selfish, but I don't want to live my Life in fear and regret.

In life, there will always be choices and up till today, I have always made okay choices that allowed others to move on without me being a nuisance. But why the difference now? I smell desperation and the stench of pathetic in me.

I have tried so hard to keep everything in line and my life as normal as possible. But it seems that I am just not trying hard enough. Still, it gives me some temporary peace of mind to lay out the demons in my head in writing.

I'm expecting there will be more.

Alyssa




I like my job. No matter what curveballs they throw at me, I still do.

My job is interesting, there's never a day that's normal. Unexpected changes happen so often that they become expected. I kind of like this because I really hate routine.

My job never has enough time for it. There's so much to do that you wish you had more time in the day to complete them. Whereas, my ex job (office) had me looking at the clock for the time to pass on several occasions.

Because of this job, I have become a much more confident and fluent speaker. I am able to liase and negotiate well. And most importantly, I am able to drive and park my car. I even got to know the Singapore roads better, even after being a Singaporean for 21 years!

I like the challenges that come with this job, even though they give me more headache than I requested for. To complete each task successfully gives me a sense of achievement inside. Hence, I look forward with anticipation to every extra task assigned to me.

Question is.. Do YOU like your job?


Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




Yesterday night, I binged on 2 butter toast, fried rice, luncheon meat and Milo. This morning, I binged on 4 butter toast, luncheon meat, cheese and B&J ice cream! That's about how 'healthy' my diet can be.. Haha


Despite feeling fat, I went to Wild Wild Wet for the very 1st time, mainly because I was super tempted by my brother's manhunt photos..

Warning: Super sexy beast.. View ahead with caution!






I vote him for this year's manhunt! He can definitely be Wild Wild Wet's new representative!

The sad thing was I scrapped my right ankle's scab while on a ride, so now it's all fresh and bloody again. And while going into the jacuzzi, I fell and hit my bottom hard! Lucky I didn't crack open my skull.. Hehe

Ended the day with delicious mee siam dinner at my bro's new house! Loveeeee seeing my precious niece!! :))



Love,
BossaNovAlyssa





Ooh wells, thanks to a dose of cough syrup yesterday, I was down for 14 hours. So I didn't make it to CF or BJJ.. ended up going to QB Foods at 8 Chin Bee Crescent to buy steak, bacon and cheese!


Proceeded home to cook them! Master chef was J and I am only the photographer hahaha..





There u go! Enjoy! *drools*

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




20, 15, 10, 5 OHS 15#
5, 10, 15, 20 ring pulls
30 tuckjumps bwt sets

Time - 8:08 mins

I gotta fucking work on my squats, pull ups and double fucking unders. It's pissing me off that I can't seem to get it.

Oh well, another day, another WOD down. Just finished supper which consisted of pork organ soup, steamed fish paste and braised peanuts.

Looking forward to a busy day tmr, starting with a 10.30am WOD, then the last 1.30pm BJJ class and ending with a sweet 987RSVP party into the night @ Yellow Jello!



Love,
BossaNovAlyssa





Today is Friday yet again and the weekends are almost here. There's only 10 outlets and 1 wod standing in my way.

Had a fantastic breakfast near Mustafa today: Plaster prata, onion prata, tandoori chicken, curried quail eggs, fish curry, teh halia and milo c kosong peng! Wondering why there are no photos? It's because my iPhone ran out of battery and I was letting it charge at Mustafa hehehe...

Every meal I take with J is like a mini food escapade! And every weekend feels like a mini vacation. In case u don't know it, u are my ''meditation" coz the moment that I'm with you, everything else fades into background noise and obscurity from view. You make me smile. :))

And I'm loving the iPhone blogpress app! It's convenience in photoblogging is simply amazing! I gotta say this is really going to encourage me to blog more, esply abt food since apart from working/driving, you can find me either eating or exercising. I'll go with the former most of the time... ;P

Leave you with a photo of the cutest nephew EVARRRR!


Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




J brought me to a hawker centre named Dean's cafe. The crab bee hoon was soooo delicious! Yums! I never really liked crab bee hoon until today.. Haha





Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




When people of expected age pass away, we grieve. When people of unexpected age pass away, we grieve even more for their lack of time and space in this lifetime.

When a person close to you departs, you long for them to be back. When a person you barely even know departs, how should you feel? Should Death always be accompanied by extreme grieve? Or can we not feel guilty being calm over it? Perhaps, I feel sad that someone in this time and space is gone and that his loved ones are left behind alone.

To me, I lead my Life everyday with my mind boggled with all my problems, stress and expectations that I am shocked to realise again how truly fragile Life can be. And it only takes so little to bring someone away forever. Every minute, the hearts and soul of people are disappearing, taking down the hearts of the people they leave behind down many notches. As morbid as it sounds, I resolve to put in more effort to be happy and cherish the people around me.


I am not in J's shoes but I want to let you know that no matter how you feel, I'll be there for you. <3

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa






If I could stop myself from

hurting
caring
crying
thinking
obsessing
being upset
being confused
being disturbed
not smiling
being angry
being frustrated
being insecure
being jealous

all of the fucking above, I would.

But I can't..



To be honest, let's ask ourselves what are some of the main reasons why relationships do not work out?

1) Insecurity (Jealousy)
2) Anger
3) Dishonesty
4) Third party input

Everybody wants a relationship that is simple: that is to love and be loved in return. (in regards to whether this exists, that is another question altogether) Yet, there are always people out there who selfishly overthink things, only seek for attention and end up manipulating others for their own good. Then get confused coz they lost to someone else and that person can't be their bitch anymore. It's all very human but do we really have to resort to treating people we care about as puppets? My point is very clear, if you do not think you can give the person any sort of a future with you, then please fuck off and stop acting the saint, don't even start painting ugly pictures of what's outside your boundaries and control coz you don't know shit. It's called dangling people on strings! Would you like to be dangled on a string? You will not only end up hurting him, but hurting the people around him, including your own fucking delusional self as well.

I am tired of hearing such bullshit that I will break his heart becoz I am young. Then if you believe it to be such a valid point, did you pause to switch on your brains and think that the situation can be reversed as well? Or do you believe that the people ard you are brainless shits and you are the only one capable of thinking, that you have to constantly remind others of the negativities. When you ASSUME, u are the ultimate ass becoz u think tat it makes me an ass as well? Well no, I am always thinking and I never once believed your assumptions to start with. To be concise, if you are not involved, don't fucking get involved. Becoz you will end up saying some two-bit nothing guilt-trip nonsense that will mindfuck your friend and keep them lonely for the rest of their life. People who need to declare that all they want is for you to be happy are obviously lying through their teeth, becoz do they really need to say it out? What are they trying to prove there and then? If they were genuinely happy for you, they wouldn't even have to reassure you or themselves by speaking out loud for that matter.

Simply put, I have always been a rational do-er. If you can come to me and tell me the honest truth and rationalization behind why you feel confused and worried, then only will I change my whole opinion of you as a loser and maybe strike a compromise with you. Otherwise, I think it's better for you to concentrate on your weight, finances and husband becoz nobody can do that for you. If you really have soooo much free time to manipulate your guy friends, then mayb you could focus a little more on manipulating your husband into the perfect guy for you.

Go ahead, put names on who I am talking about, becoz I can tell you that it's not singular.

I am just disturbed and tired of being angry. Fuck off bitches. Don't tell me I am not worthy because it takes one to know one.



In the morning, you are my apple strudel.
Lunchtime, you are vanilla ice cream on peaches.
Dinner time, you are chocolate cake soaked in liquer!
For the rest of our lives, may you be the sweetness and warmth that enriches us :)

2nd Mar 2010 @ 9.42am

Beautiful words from my darling..
had to write it down here so I will never lose or forget it.

How come I'm all fat foods?!

TEEHEE!