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BossaNovAlyssa is my journey of self-discovery in all its happiness, joys, pain, tears and frustrations, accompanied by great music. Music, crossfit, food, cartoons, movies and dogs are some of my greatest loves :)

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010, 1:43 PM
Facing My Demons


To be honest, let's ask ourselves what are some of the main reasons why relationships do not work out?

1) Insecurity (Jealousy)
2) Anger
3) Dishonesty
4) Third party input

Everybody wants a relationship that is simple: that is to love and be loved in return. (in regards to whether this exists, that is another question altogether) Yet, there are always people out there who selfishly overthink things, only seek for attention and end up manipulating others for their own good. Then get confused coz they lost to someone else and that person can't be their bitch anymore. It's all very human but do we really have to resort to treating people we care about as puppets? My point is very clear, if you do not think you can give the person any sort of a future with you, then please fuck off and stop acting the saint, don't even start painting ugly pictures of what's outside your boundaries and control coz you don't know shit. It's called dangling people on strings! Would you like to be dangled on a string? You will not only end up hurting him, but hurting the people around him, including your own fucking delusional self as well.

I am tired of hearing such bullshit that I will break his heart becoz I am young. Then if you believe it to be such a valid point, did you pause to switch on your brains and think that the situation can be reversed as well? Or do you believe that the people ard you are brainless shits and you are the only one capable of thinking, that you have to constantly remind others of the negativities. When you ASSUME, u are the ultimate ass becoz u think tat it makes me an ass as well? Well no, I am always thinking and I never once believed your assumptions to start with. To be concise, if you are not involved, don't fucking get involved. Becoz you will end up saying some two-bit nothing guilt-trip nonsense that will mindfuck your friend and keep them lonely for the rest of their life. People who need to declare that all they want is for you to be happy are obviously lying through their teeth, becoz do they really need to say it out? What are they trying to prove there and then? If they were genuinely happy for you, they wouldn't even have to reassure you or themselves by speaking out loud for that matter.

Simply put, I have always been a rational do-er. If you can come to me and tell me the honest truth and rationalization behind why you feel confused and worried, then only will I change my whole opinion of you as a loser and maybe strike a compromise with you. Otherwise, I think it's better for you to concentrate on your weight, finances and husband becoz nobody can do that for you. If you really have soooo much free time to manipulate your guy friends, then mayb you could focus a little more on manipulating your husband into the perfect guy for you.

Go ahead, put names on who I am talking about, becoz I can tell you that it's not singular.

I am just disturbed and tired of being angry. Fuck off bitches. Don't tell me I am not worthy because it takes one to know one.