WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..

won't be updating here anymore (for the time being) for obvious reasons.

Crossfit
Study
Work

Aza aza fighting!

nothing else can be said..
end of the chapter..
moving on to greater things..

WILL BE BACK WITH AWESOME-ER MUSIC AND ATTITUDE! :D

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa



Here I am again,
Crying the moment I'm alone
Overwhelmed by absence,
My front is cracking.

I'm sorry..
But I just can't forget you.
It's taking everything of me
To not think about you

How can we be so wrong
For each other
When it feels so right
I miss you..

Love,
Alyssa




Can I ask you somethin'
Have ya changed
Or you the same
Cuz baby I know nothin'
About you these days
I wonder where you are now
And where you lay your head
And when you sleep alone how
Do you not
Remember what we had
And I know that something
Is goin' on
It's goin' on and on
Cuz' we haven't spoken
For so long
It's been So Long
This time is slowly passing
As you keep me on the line
I feel it's everlasting
And I'll be here
All of my life
It's been so long.
Oh yeh
Let me go yeh
Oh No No No
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Oh no.
Can I ask you somethin'
Have ya changed
Or you the same




Went to Chao Chu Kang & Mandai Memorium to pay respects to my ancestors. Found out that my ah chor passed away at 39 years old. My grandmother cooked really yummy food for them.

After praying, we adjourned to eat ampang Yong tau foo!



















Too bad I was too busy eating to take any photos of the Yong tau foo itself. The Yong tau foo had crispy soy bean skin, brinjal, quail egg, fish ball, tau kwa, beancurd, bittergourd, lady fingers and kang kong. A meat ravioli sauce is slathered all over this deadly concoction of fish paste goodies. However, people who don't take lady fingers and whatnot may feel that the variety is limited.

On the other hand, the roast chicken we ate was super shiok! So good! We ordered char siew and roast pork as well. Well, I'll get the tantalizing photos from my bro and post it up next time!

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




I couldn't resist posting this photo. This is the paleo pyramid, which I love and try my best to abide by on a daily basis!

120410 WOD

Box Squat
3-3-3-3-3-3 (50#-70#)

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10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 KBS (12kg)
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10 pull up (jump pulls)

Time: 6.35 mins

For box squats, I am glad to discover that I have flexibility in squatting. But I guess that's not necessarily a good thing since I tend to squat too deep. My stance is off as well, since I don't have the habit of keeping the weight on my heels (I suspect probably due to training at another gym last time, whereby the technique taught there was elevated heel squats, which I might have gotten used to the height difference.) Well, no excuses there. I need to learn to pop my knees outwards and stop pushing off with my right feet. And always to push my butt back as far as possible, of course!

Since the focus is on technique, I decided to de-load from 70# back to 50# because I could not explode upwards with 70#. Have to keep practicing the movement until I get the hang of it and exploding upwards becomes second nature.


130410 WOD

Deadlifts
5-5-5

130# / 140# / 160#F

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5 rds

6 seated muscle ups
12 box jumps
200m

Time: 16.05 mins

My thoughts on the WOD was I enjoyed it thoroughly. Things I need to work on is tightening my core. My mind is usually lazy and I tend to squat without putting in maximum effort. Guess that's why my front squat is capped at 70#-3 reps and 100#-1 rep max. Honestly, I hate squats, they actually make me fear them. It's only because squats need real effort and work, since I'm weak at them. And doing things you are weak at or afraid of is the only way you are ever going to get stronger and better. So if squats are the thing that I hate doing the most, all the more I should work at them. Really have to mentally force and train myself to keep engaging my core muscles and holding my chest up & butt back & down. Kev/Alistair also helped me realise that I am not resting my weight on the right part of the feet. If i just focus on pushing my knees outwards, the weight will ease off to the outer parts of the soles, which will results in pushing down my heels naturally. Today's deadlift was kinda poorly done since I started warming up with unneccessary light weights and was not able to PR today. But I guess it tells me where I can start off from next time. After keeping the barbells, right as we were about to start the 2nd half of the WOD, it started pouring.

However, I have shed sweat, blood and skin for Crossfit. No way am I gonna let rain stop me from doing the WOD as it is. Hence, we continued on. I do feel that my timing is really bad, mainly because I am always hesitant to push myself during the 1st few rounds. I tend to stay in this comfortable mode under the excuse of pacing myself. It felt good to burst through the last 2 rounds though.

After CF, I drove home and the feeling of speeding on the expressway in the rain is simply exhilarating. Very dangerous but very thrilling, I must say. Except snaking through the other cars, overtaking them! Okay, that was very random. No worries, I will drive safely.

Strong is the new SEXY!

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa













I finally have ripped calluses, hence, I'm one step closer to becoming a MAN! >.< just kidding.. It hurts like a muthafkrr!

Suffice to say, I still can't do pull ups. Did the 7 deadlift, 9 toes to bar and 12 burpees WOD with Theo yesterday before doing sled pulls of 2x45lbs plate. Just after one pull, my hams and glutes felt it immediately. Went heavier on the DLs as well, managed to do 120lbs. Still can't do toes to bar. Grr! I had a dream that I finally did it though.. Haha

I need to stop excusing myself from going heavy. And I'm such a sucker for pain.. I cut my ingrown toenail until it bled again. Haha.. I need to see a doctor. For my toenail, not my OCD.

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa




I'm exhausted of myself.

When there's nothing to focus on, I focus on myself, which usually turns into a self-loathing and nitpicking of flaws battle. No pain, no gain right?!

Random, but yeah..

I saw the PushMore video by Crossfit Malaysia.. Am super impressed by their female trainers. Honestly, there hasn't been alot of Asian girls to look up to as motivation in CFSG. Though Annelise is definitely a worthy opponent, judging by the fact she's lighter but stronger than me.

I have been doing CF for about 4+ months now but the only achievements I can speak of is single skips, box jumps and somewhat of a stamina. I have yet to achieve pull ups (much less kipping), double unders, muscle ups and all other complex lifting movements. BAM! Reality check...

I really need to push more. This is really unbecoming of me. That means no more distractions, ie. eating crappy food and going for CF irregularly.

That, I feel, will help me in my emotional state. And anything that keeps Alyssa sane will enable her to perform in other aspects of her Life. If not, she'll just become a spiralling disappointment, weighed down by worries and insecurities.

Don't judge me, I'm like this. I'm not depressed, it's just the way I function. Looking forward, I really wanna make something of myself.

Love,
BossaNovAlyssa





Here is today's poison..

5 rds
7 deadlifts 100lbs
9 bar tucks
12 burpees

Time: 11.16mins

Tempted to go heavier on the deadlifts but I would have lost the intensity.. On a side note, my callus is ripping!


Love,
BossaNovAlyssa